SO MIX SOME WATER WITH THE WINE

Well this is a bottle of wine later or a story later don't know. Well whenever i feel i have had enough to think or is that to drink i wanna go lay down and go to sleep, i did that, what? have to much to think or drink and went to sleep, and wow did i ever dream. My dream i was at a festival with the womon i love and we were walking around the land, the land turned to a university campus and i was alone laying out on the grass getting sun on me belly when i look up and about 20thousand bodies were walking past me going into the buildings to i think register to be students,i have started to dream again almost every night,so anyway i jumped up off the grass and started toward the back of the building but it was so dark and i was getting scared i duck through what i thought was a building with bodies in it it was empty, i started to run and i ran directly into a figure standing next to the column a voice said to me sacred eh? and i heard my own voice answer scared of what ? the voice said to me you are scared of me, again i heard my voice say so who are you that i should be scared of ? voice answered i am the one who put you in that dark and i woke up with a start. Did i drink that wine i don't have a headache but i could not for the sake of me remember if i drank the bottle of wine, it wasn't morning yet so i got up walked into the kitchen to look for the bottle of wine,no wine in the kitchen, what about the living room no wine in the living room, OK so where is the bottle of wine i know i had one so where is it? Look in the garbage cans,nope no wine in the cans. I sat down on the floor and i said to myself i know i am not crazy nor going there, i had a bottle of wine somewhere in this apartment and the last time i remembered it was in the kitchen, i know i could not have drank it i would feel it now i know i would so take a deep breath and think, keep sitting on the floor until it comes to you, who you? a voice said in my head o no not now please alter i don't need you now pleezzze, o yes you do need me now said my alter cause you aren't sure if you're loosing it or not and i can help you, all you have to say is alter i need you please don't fail me now, me alter said go ahead say it say it. You know it is so easy to be high and mighty in the midst of having no fear, but fear fear fear what is that really how could one word create such tremblings. Now look at that word, i mean really look at the word FEAR FEAR F EAR FE AR, some how when i write it out it ain't that fearfull or should that be fear full, fear fill, fear ful? UMM. So anyway i said OK alter i will let you have your way for the moment,she started laughing like mad, she stop when i said alright alter i need your please don't fail me now, she said say it again, i said OK alter i need you please don't fail me now, she said now at this place you can chose to become angry or you can chose to have my help, so she said say it for the third time, i said OK alter i need you please don't fail me now, she smiled and said to me humbling isn't it? go look in the refrigerator, i got up off the floor looked in the frig and there was the bottle of wine laying on its side right where i put it last night before i literally threw myself in bed. What is a mind really it is not the brain so what is it ?as long a humankind has studied everything and especially its own kind how come no one has really discovered what a mind really is,is it really as this old womon told me one time that the mind is ether, air, one of the forces of nature we can see the effects of the mind but the mind is one of the mysteries in the universe, and being a mystery well that's what it is. And i had not open the mind i mean wine, i just thought i was loosing it. Now for a big glass of cool water. whew