LUNCH WITH WHO?

Well I did have lunch with me eggy lady, was interesting but not of interest, her desire is to get into my pants,my desire is to keep her away from me and my pants. She is an interesting womon but not one that I am particularly interested in from a sexual place.. She has not decided if she is a Lesbian or not and I am not interested in helping her find out. Told her that and it went over just funky, she got very indignant and of all things accused me of being a tease, told her she was full of crap and angry over feeling negelected by me but also told her that I know of a lot of wimmin who would be interested in her, and when she came to the next meeting I would introduce her to some, told me she did not know if she was coming to the next meeting, said whatever, she left in a big huff, will see what happens next.

WOW I AM BACK

Seems like forever since I've been here. So much has happened in the past few days, seems as though the world took on a super spin and I'm in the middle of it. Well where to begin, there is still talk going on from the last LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in-wimmin-only-space event/action in THE HOUSE, or rather the First event/action in THE HOUSE. I got a chance to talk a lot to S...y about a lot of things. Talking to her has caused me to give a lot of thought to where am I going and where do I want to go, to what is important to me and who is important to me, since she has been talking to me it seems as though me alter has left me, well she does not show up in my brain as often. I no longer have this urge to go homeless, especially since I went on the streets to be around a homeless atmosphere for a bit, it really is not for me, just hanging out in the streets around so many homeless and most of them being men caused me great discomfort greater than the discomfort I sometimes feel when I am with the wimmin. So I guess it is a matter of me deciding what is good for me and to me. I do like hearing what S...y has to say I do think she is very wise, however I realize that I too have something to say that is worth listening to. What I don't really know yet but I will.

THIS IS FEED BACK ? O?

I am still reeling from the last rather the first (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in-wimmin-only-space)event/action at THE HOUSE.The womon who said she was/is addicted to eating meat call me today, she wanted to know when we could get together to talk, she also said she really wanted to change her dietary patterns/habits and thought that I may be able to help her. My very first impluse was to say no since I remembered what S...y had said to me, but I did not, I asked her if she would allow me a day or so to get it together for myself and that if she gave me her phone number I would call her and let her know when, ok with her and she gave me her number. I started to really seriously think about what S...y had said and I knew I had to talk to her about this before I made a decision of any kind. The womon who had called me to have lunch suddendly didn't seem so exciting I begin to feel that too much was happening at once and that I needed some time alone, me alter said HAHA I knew it was coming, what was coming I asked you knew what was coming? and if you did how come you did'nt mention it before now? Silence. So anyway the day is just beginning my mind is still reeling from the action/event, and there is S...y out there playing in the fire ring like that is all there is in the world. I wonder how I would feel being homeless, I wonder if I could just walk out THE HOUSE right now and not say a word to S...y or anyone where I was going and just not come back? I wonder could I become a homeless womon? Does that take a lot of guts? Could I really right now with only what is on my body walk out and not come back here? Am I having a break with reality? and Which reality am I having a break with? How will I know this is a break? What are the signals? Desire? Thought? Fantasy?

FEED BACK FEED BACKS ANIMAL OR VEGETABLE?

Well without a doubt the first (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in-wimmin-only-space ) was quite the action/event. Early this morning the telly rings and there is some womon saying to me that she had to call me to tell me this and it (the this) had been on her mind every since the meeting. OK I said to me self get ready this one may hurt. She said that she wanted to thank me and some of the other wimmin for inviting her to one of the most inspiring evening that she had experience in a long time. I must say I was quite taken aback and surprised and told her so, I asked her what was inspiring to or rather for her, she said the variety of wimmin who were at the meeting, she also said she had been to many wimmin/lesbian gatherings/groups and had never had the experience of being around some many different lesbians/wimmin. I reminded her that not all the wimmin who were at the event see or define themselves as lesbian, she said she realized that but it was the variety that so impressed her. She then asked me if I would like to go out for a tea or lunch one day,this surprised me and I was not ready for it, and before I realized it I said no I did not think that was possible. She asked why not, I said because I really did not know her, She laughed and said of course you don't, I don't know you either, and how could we get to know each other unless we started somewhere, and lunch seemed like the perfect place to start. I asked if I could get back in touch with her, she said of course when? Surprised by her egg-i-ness, I said I would call her back in three days. She asked why three days, she said if I was going to do it I knew now as well as I would in three days. I felt a bit pushed and said OK, OK, I'll call you tonight at this she said well tell me now and let it be done, I said no I did not want to go out,she said very fine I will bring lunch to your house or rather as the wimmin called it THE HOUSE tomorrow at 2 with lunch in hand and we wont have to go out, now how does that grab you? I had to laugh at her persistence and answered ok., see you tomorrow at two. She said bye and so did I, wow I have never had a womon come on strong to me before now, that felt kind of good, I heard me alter say O look at the smile on your face.

WHAT A NIGHT O WHAT A NIGHT

It was quite a night what a night it was the first (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in-wimmin-only-space) wow. Fifty wimmin showed up for the first, the food a hit, THE HOUSE loved by everyone,the topics wow topics I would have never imagined surfaced. One of the topic that took center stage was the splitting up of the group into another group, the group where everybody is invited, the food is not plant based and it is not a wimmin-only group. One of the wimmin started the discussion by saying she thought it was a tragedy wimmin could not get along enough to have a unified group and thus causing another group to form. I said I thought it was very good to see groups split from each other to form other groups I went on to say that I thought it was a healthy process because it allowed others to seek out and form groups that supported their particular interest, and that no group could meet the interest of everybody, to wit groups of like minded people could come together and do what they thought was necessary to accomplish their goals without the infighting that comes because of a difference in interest. Another womon responded to me saying that my way of thinking was always a questionable one as she saw it and that my need to have my way by having a wimmin-only group and plant based food was the real cause of the split. I responded by saying that if that was the reason then I was very happy about it. Because it cause those of us who wanted a wimmin-only group and plant based foods to take a sincere look at what we wanted and perhaps this is what happen with the other wimmin. One womon thought that the group should make an effort at reconciliation with the newly formed group, but I questioned why? I asked are we not still talking to each other, I spoke with one of the wimmin from the other group this a.m. Another womon said she thought reconciliation was a good idea, one other said what and why would we do that since as far as she was concerned there was no breakup just a going on to our desired ways. Many wimmin were new and did not have any idea of what was going on and G..... said this, why are we starting out our new group with subjects that have really nothing to do with us now, since many of the wimmin were new to the group,she went on to say let us start with the concerns of the wimmin who are here now. Everyone seemed to agree to this and so we begin. The womon who some time back in the old group who had mentioned she was addicted to meat,asked if she could get some feed back on her concerned of how to become not
addicted to eating animal parts.(well she did not say animal parts I did). I started out by asking her how much plant based foods had she eaten since the last time the group met. She said she had now developed the habit of eating a salad three times a week, I said that was great and I still wanted to know how much animal did she eat in the run of a week? One of the new wimmin there said she thought it was very rude of me to call meat animal parts and that it was an insult to wimmin who did eat meat. I said so if you think calling animal parts meat is not an insult to the animals being eaten, then why is it an insult to those doing the eating? And why not call it what it is,I went on to say by giving it such an exotic name of meat, we don't have to take responsibility for participating in the slaughtering and maiming of millions of animals of land,air and sea. My conversation went over like a lead balloon.The womon who said she was addicted to eating animals, started to cry and I asked her what was that about, she said I had hurt her feelings, I said I did not know that I was that powerful,some wimmin gasped, I heard one voice say this is terrible and I responded with so what do you think the animal being eaten thinks about how terrible it was? I felt tonight is the night to get it all out in the open, stop farting around the subject of animal eating, if that is what you do and you want to stop, then, stop. I looked at the womon who said she was addicted and said if you really want to stop eating animal then do that and stop playing with yourself on the subject, I also told her I would help her if she wanted me to but I would no longer be her commode to dump in after she had eaten the animal, I also told her that not being willing to make some effort of not eating meat as she called it was her work to do not mine and that I would sincerely help if she sincerely wanted helped,and that she would get not pity from me. Some of the wimmin in the group sat with their mouths open as though in shock. I went on to say this was not my attempt at being mean, that this was my effort at being honest with this womon which is something I felt had not been done in the pass, I told the womon if she wanted to we could have a least one or two meals together a week and talk about her concern and what else she could do to help herself in her journey. She kept boo-who-ing, I told her if she wanted to take me up on the offer I would be willing to hear her response tonight but after tonight if she choose not to, that I would turn on my deaf ear to her every time she brought the subject up,cause I personally thought she was in some form of denial. I dont know what happened but I continued once started. I said that I thought that some of the wimmin in the group had been mean in so much as they would talk about this womon behind her back, about her size and how she smelled, and how they did not want to be seen with her but they could not tell her to her face what they were thinking about her, yet, here in the meeting they acted as though I was the enemy, I shared with the womon that I was being as sincere as I could be and that I sincerely wanted to help her, if that was what she wanted and only if that was what she wanted, she continue to boo who like a baby, and everyone was handing her nose wipers, I got up and went into the kitchen, I have had enough of this. I stayed in kitchen for a good 10mins., when I came out everyone seemed to have calmed down and the womon had stopped crying. Well I said to myself that is one way to get someone to shut up, just start crying. Me alter showed up and said, were you being kind when you said what you said, and if you were you will sit your ass down and be a part of the group again, or are you making an attempt to Manipulate the group? Well the wimmin had started talking about another subject when I came back to the group. One womon said to me so what was the going in the kitchen for the past 10mins., about? I looked at her and said control, and sat down. I think I am finished for the night as far as discussions are concerned, besides I had glanced out the window and S...y had started a fire, I guess I did too. The group was going on quite OK without my comments, so I decided to go outside to the fire,and I did that, when I got outside S...y was sitting on a log peering into the fire which was quite beautiful, she said got a little hot in there to you yea? so that is the real reason you are out here with me yes? I did not answer I sat down and glared into the fire and I was beginning to wonder if I should be pissed but I wasn't. I am alright sitting out here, let the group go on and it did, went on till midnight, and then some of the wimmin came and sat around the fire, one of the wimmin made an effort to get some conversation started but no one was interested in talk, I guess everyone had talked out. G.... came out looked at the fire said well this is something I did not expect and then said goodnight. The other wimmin left about a half hour later, S.... and I sat and talked and gazed into the fire until about l o'clock, I fell asleep on the ground next to the fire, when I woke up the Sun was rising, I looked up in the tree and S....y was sitting facing the east with her legs crossed lotus style, I got up and went into THE HOUSE, the wimmin from the meeting had cleaned up everything, washed dishes and put leftover foods away, I looked around and wondered to myself if maybe I had gone a bit to far last night, but there was nothing I could do about that, and I know I will hear some feedback soon. WOW and that was the first(LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in-wimmin-only-space ) in THE HOUSE.

THE BIG COOKER OR IS THAT COOKEE

Well tonight is the night and I have started to cook what I think will be a big hit. This is the first (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in wimmin-only-space) action/event in THE HOUSE. I am very excited and from what I have heard from the wimmin I've called they are also. One womon said she made a carrot/banana cake another one said she made a ginger beer drink and another wanted to know if she made kool-aid would anyone drink it, I suggested to her Lemonade. The event/action is scheduled to start at 7.30pm, and there seems as though there will be about 40 wimmin coming. I discovered how to make soysage from tofu, so I will offer a pasta dish of multi-grain spaghetti with tomato portobella mushroom sauce, organic of course, a nice radicchio,arugula, romaine,carrot, cucumber and mung bean sprout salad, with a balsamic, ume plum vinegar dressing and a ginger dressing. I got some organic green beans and I will steam them with slivered almonds. I got some vegan cheese and I will offer it but the last time I did that no one wanted to try it, will see what happens. I realized that me alter had not been to see me in a while and I do wonder what that is about, I sort of miss her. O well leave her be. One thing feels good we don't have to concern ourselves with parking. It will be interesting to see what and how the wimmin coming will be have not seen them now for about 2 months, be interesting to see what the conversations will be about. I have prepared enough food for 50wimmin. I am a bit nervous, but I will get through this. So now am I the cooker or the cookee? Whatever. I plan to have a great time tonight and I want everyone else to have one.