OK OK ME AND MY ALTER

I have the right to be suspicious if i want, i have the right to discern and discriminate, i have the right to accept and reject i have, i have, i have, this is what is was saying to myself when madame alter walked right into the middle of my conversation with myself and begin to talk to me in what i called tongues and had the nerve to say to me that i was quite aware of what she was talking about and that i could call what she had to say anything i like and that i did have that right also. The nerve of her she said you know i am beginning to believe you might have some issue with wimmin and money that you really need to pay attention to. Maybe you are the divide or rather maybe you are the one who use money to divide yourself from other wimmin, she said i say this because here there is someone who is willing to support you and you began an analysis of her efforts toward you and the (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in-wimmin-only-space)action/event full of suspicion, and you cover your true feelings in some hi-fluting sounding words like discern and discriminate, accept and reject, and then you have the eggs to pair those words with i have the right to, so where did you gain the right ?who gave it to you? who else has those rights? or are they design solely for you? I heard myself say out loud i sure as hell don't need any guilt-tripping from you. You know when i heard my own voice saying these words out loud, i remembered as a little girl i would hear my mother talking to herself and i would ask her who she was talking to, she would say myself, and then she would say o not to worry about talking to yourself it was a very healthy sign,she also said it is when you started to answer yourself out loud that you may have a problem.Well so am i healthy or may i have a problem ? He he he he I'm talking to myself I'm talking to myself was that in Jane sibry song of o i forget so is that a good thing? Am i healthy? Am i loosing it? Have I lost it? You know i seem to having more and more thoughts about how to get rid of an alter,do i need analysis? My friend and my lover says she thinks i might be going anal. Well anyway i am gonna go by the house she offered and then i will tell the other wimmin at the next (LHD-in-wimmin-only-space) action/event about it to see what they think about the house and the idea and maybe about G..... I wonder if i can get rid of an alter with some strong drug, but that would affect me also wouldn't it? Alter answered YEP

WELL NOW?

Now that i have had my evaluation by the 5 wimmin i think i can go on being me self. So guess who showed up at my apartment in an unsafe part of town the womon with the 50 dollar donation i will stop calling her by that name as of now and address her by her name which is G...... She said she came by to make a suggestion and i told her i was willing to listen. Here is what she had to say. I have come to offer you another place to hold the (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING) event/action, it is an adorable little house that is in disrepair right now but if you are interested in the idea i will have it repaired and you can move into her the repair time will take about 3months, i will rent it to you for a small amount comparable to what you pay for your apartment, i know that you would want work done on her when you move there should you accept done by wimmin and that will be up to you.You will be responsible for that i will pay for work done on her before you move in. Well i gotta tell you i was more than floored and of course very suspicious. I told her i needed to think about the offer and i never would have thought she would be the one who would make such an offer. I asked her where was it located she gave me the address and suggested that i go by and take a look at her, i plan to do that today. An old womon told me many moons age "one never know the wonders a day can bring" wow do i understand that now. Me alter said you see how colored your attitude about this womon has been now what is the true divide. I said to my alter don't get to glorious on me i still think that there might by a motive behind all of this. Me alter said you know the training of the patriarchy dies slowly, i asked what was that supposed to mean? No comment. So well now what do i think about this and me thoughts about G...... now? So is this the way money can be used not as a divide? I don't know yet still suspicious.