I DREAM AND DREAM OF WIMMIN-ONLY SPACE

sleep did come easy and the dreams flowed like never before, this was the first time i remembered having a dream since i came back for the land of the homeless and what wyrd and strange dreams. the first one i remembered had to do with my oldest sister who arrived at her sunset eighteen years ago. in the dream she and one of my other sisters were driving this old car from the 50ties and i kept running after them asking them to wait for me cause i wanted to go with them, as i ran they kept going faster, i then took flight and flew up over the car and i was screaming for them to stop, but they kept going and started to look up and laugh, then out of no where our mother showed up and said to me you know you sisters can't drive so that can not be them in the car, i was still in flight but the car had disappeared, my mother reached up and gently pulled my down to the ground using the shirt i had on, she looked at me and reached over, patted my shoulder and covered me with some sort of fabric, i remembered taking a deep breath and hearing the hissing of a spray can, i opened my eyes and my mother sprayed something on me from the can and i remembered having the feeling that i was dying. i died, and then heard myself say nope not now and woke up, and all of this was in one dream.
You know this causes me to wonder again am i dead now that i am awake, or am i dead when i am dreaming? which one is the real one? is there a real one? real one what? i have begun to do an analysis of this dream and i have gotten no where just yet. I know understanding will come i just don't know when. the next dream i was with Sally and Gloria and a Lotta other wimmin at some sort of womyn's event walking down a dirt road to what was called the family affair time, as i walked down the road i noticed that there were wimmin, girls, men, and boys at the event, i stopped and asked a womyn who was by herself if this was a womon-only event she said no it is a woman's event, i kept walking down the road and met up with another womon and i asked her where was the womon-only event she said there is no such thing and that i must have been dreaming, when i awaken from these dreams i was not sure if i was awake. i found myself asking for me alter to visit me or for someone to visit me so that they could give me some assistance back into reality. reality? reality.