THE HIATUS IS OVER

Well I am back after a bit of a Hiatus it is over now. Was very interesting how things happened. I did not realize that so many wimmin really did miss me and certainly missed them much more than I realized I would. D.... has come to see me and talk often, thanks to her I still feel connected to wimmin interested in dealing with food and food concerns. She is no longer calling it "her meat addiction" she now talks about her feelings in relationship to food and those who over the years provided her with food and under what conditions. I told her about my cousin who had died from having a heart attack and other conditions that came on because of her weight, she died at the age of 37 weighing over 448 pounds. We loved each other, I never know why she ate as she did however before she died she told me a lotta things about herself and her mother father brothers and sisters. I felt so terribly bad when she finished talking to me, I felt as though we all had killed her, killed her by not talking about the abuse she got from her father and brothers, abuse that she had taken in and made a part of her own core, i started to feel guilty about not talking about this to her earlier in her and my life, i got pissed off with myself and all the family members who said we loved her as we watch her get eaten up, i am now glad i can talk about this and i am most happy for having taken the time to talk to D..... ,i realize tis not her meat addiction but all of us wimmin as well.