THIS IS FEED BACK ? O?

I am still reeling from the last rather the first (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in-wimmin-only-space)event/action at THE HOUSE.The womon who said she was/is addicted to eating meat call me today, she wanted to know when we could get together to talk, she also said she really wanted to change her dietary patterns/habits and thought that I may be able to help her. My very first impluse was to say no since I remembered what S...y had said to me, but I did not, I asked her if she would allow me a day or so to get it together for myself and that if she gave me her phone number I would call her and let her know when, ok with her and she gave me her number. I started to really seriously think about what S...y had said and I knew I had to talk to her about this before I made a decision of any kind. The womon who had called me to have lunch suddendly didn't seem so exciting I begin to feel that too much was happening at once and that I needed some time alone, me alter said HAHA I knew it was coming, what was coming I asked you knew what was coming? and if you did how come you did'nt mention it before now? Silence. So anyway the day is just beginning my mind is still reeling from the action/event, and there is S...y out there playing in the fire ring like that is all there is in the world. I wonder how I would feel being homeless, I wonder if I could just walk out THE HOUSE right now and not say a word to S...y or anyone where I was going and just not come back? I wonder could I become a homeless womon? Does that take a lot of guts? Could I really right now with only what is on my body walk out and not come back here? Am I having a break with reality? and Which reality am I having a break with? How will I know this is a break? What are the signals? Desire? Thought? Fantasy?