THE TALE OF LOOK C TOLD

Well this should be a very interesting (LESBIAN-HOUSE-DINING) in-wimmin-only-space action/event. I am asking myself do i really want to move to the little house? Do i really want to leave my apartment in an unsafe part of town that i was just beginning to feel safe in? And it seem as though the other wimmin were feeling safe also. I asked myself are we becoming delusional? Are we feeling safe because we have become familiar with area and is that really safe? Or is it i am scared of change? Yo no se,well anyway tonight is the night to talk about this one, i wondered if G..... was coming to the action/event, i realized that i still have some suspicion about her and the offer and as me alter would say that is mine. So the evening began with 21 of us counting myself G..... did come and so did everyone else no new wimmin tonight i am glad of that and i am extremely nervous. I started the conversation off mainly out of the jitters with talk about the neighborhood, i don't think i was being very honest cause i really wanted to talk about the little house, i asked each womon what did she think about the idea of moving the (LHD)in-wimmin-only-space actions/events to another place? The questions why? are tired of us being here? What other place? Where? whose idea is it? I answered all the questions by starting off with G..... is offering another place first of all for me to live and next to have a larger place for the actions/events to take place,i told them of her offer, of the 21 of us there 13 said yes lets do it the others wanted to know all the details,cost, how the meeting would be changed,where was the house located,would G.....be our land lady and would she be a part of the group and would that change our dialog with her in group? these were just a few of the questions, the main concern seemed to have been about upkeep of the little house and the cost for this and how would we meet it,since my apartment was cheaper. I did not want to take on the responsibility for answering all the questions so i asked G..... to help and respond to some. She seemed ill at ease with this, however she did do it. Cost would be the same that i was paying for the apartment, the meeting would changed as we like them she had nothing to do with that except as member of the group, yes she would be our landlady and to put us at ease as to not being thrown out if she got angry with the group she was offering me a 5year deal as far as the house was concerned. I had not heard of any deal five year or not, she had not mentioned this to me so this came as a surprise. She said she would have the house repaired but that after i moved in we or i would have to be responsible for repairs and finding wimmin to do the work. I thought this is a lot of responsibility to take on suppose the group stops, can i maintain this place on the fixed income i have will i have anyone to help me what if this is a error how can i know? One of the wimmin in the group wanted to vote on it i said to myself i am so shittin tired of the vote crap,but i did not say this to the group, another womon said she saw no need to vote on something all of us had not seen, another said she was not interested in moving at all some heads nodded agreement, another said why don't we go look at her and then come back together and make a decision then, heads nodded in agreement, i said to myself i don't think i want to see her again i do love her, but i need to stay away until i hear some more from the others. They all agreed to go see her and they are going together, i told them i had seen her already and had no need to go back,one of the wimmin said o that's right you always have the first scoop on things don't you? I got pissed off with this and before i realized it i said to her o stop being such a tight ass,well the shit hit the fan and in the midst of the uproar between me and her i realized that she was very angry with me about something what i did not know and at that moment i did not give a hot damn. I heard myself say hey I'm outta here and i stood up to go somewhere and realized i was in my own apartment, so i looked around some of the wimmin had started laughing and in a split moment me alter came to me and said so now whatcha gonna do? I remembered the dykeapissin, i remembered my mother saying to me so many times girl u must learn to be patient, the wimmin were still laughing, my ego took charge and i said you do realized whose apartment this is dont you? The wimmin laughed even harder and one of them said to me so are you gonna throw us all out? will it be one by one or all of us at once. This caused me to come somewhat to my senses and i said OK OK you win and i sat back down. I was told by an old womon one time that laughter is one of the strongest tools to use in the process of creating or cooperating with change. Harumph. So everyone is going to see the little house and yes i am going with them. Harumph me alter said hey hey girl girl how is that one? I said to me alter cool it and shut the hell up.