SO NOW WHAT ?

Well this has been quite a spectacular few days to say the least. I have taken myself in tow, had good conversation with my alter, and an extra intense conversation with myself. I am now ready to begin not again but to begin. I asked 5 wimmin to give me their true impression of me to me, i remember when i was a young girl my mother would ask each one of us girls (there were 5 of us) to tell her what we thought of her first as a womon then as a mother, she assured us that we would not be punished no matter what we said to her, so i really got this idea from her. I feel very frightened about my ability to accept whatever is said to me i think in can handle it, and i wanted to hear it before the next (LESBIAN HOUSE DINING-in wimmin-only-space) action/event. Here is what the 5 different wimmin told me. The first who talk to me said the following. You tend to be very opinionated, you are very loyal almost to a fault, your ability to control what comes out of your mouth needs some attention, you are a great lesbian or as you like to be call dyke. I thanked her and to myself i said well that wasn't so bad i didn't die i can take that. The next womon said to me i don't know if i can really tell you what i think and not have to deal with festered feeling you may have over what i say to you. I asked her whose feelings was she concerned about mine or her own? She said to me you have a tendency to hold animosity toward anyone who does not agree with what you have say, you seem to like some of us really well and the others of us are treated by you like we are subordinates, you are very opinionated, you tend to act as though you are the royal voice, i must say if there was a womon i would feel safe with under dire circumstances it would be you. I thanked her and thought to myself what is a royal voice cuz if its good i want to keep it and make it really good. I didn't ask her what a royal voice is i will on another day. The third womon i asked laughed and say girl you are just fine with me and i got your back. The fourth womon i asked said, i sure would not want to get into a verbal fight with you, i asked her anything else she said no that was it. I said to myself why not get into a verbal fight with me may be good for both of us. The fifth womon i asked said well your are an enigma and i don't really understand you or what makes you tick and that's about all i have to say about you to you. I said to myself i am not a clock or a time bomb tick tick tick. So i said to myself now that you have all this feed back what are you going to do with it? I don't know, i think i will take that that is of value to me use it the rest gar bage.