FOOD DEATH CONNECTION AGAIN ?

Well the last time i was in a (LHD-in wimmin-only space), the conversations were so intense i questioned myself about coming back to the space. The questions i asked myself were also intense, some of them being why am i so drawn to this space, even though i go away always in a tither? What make me want to come back over and over again to hear these wimmin? Do they really think this way or is this just a head trip? What about myself, am i doing a head trip on myself or on them? do i really think this way? What if this is simply a game that all of us are playing? are we really making changes in ourselves or the world or society? Is anyone listening to us or are we just talking to ourselves? and if we are only doing this for our own satisfaction what is the real point or round to this?